I can’t quite believe that my Freshers’ Week was FOUR YEARS AGO. The memories are still as potent to me as the smell of sick that lingered around certain parts of our house that term. What follows are some prime excerpts from that last week of September 2008 in Bristol.
This isn’t about the artwork anymore, this is about the state of the UK punk/diy/indie/whatever scene ~ And some of what Lan has said about that is very true, and being part of the majority it has taken us a little longer to really see that. All our fun should be all-inclusive and sometimes it…
^^ happy to see this, punk doing it right, everything is a learning process and I gotta recognise that too
I originally wrote punx and my phone autocorrected it my phone is not punk at all :((
David Cameron has announced age ratings for music videos in the UK. But will a 15 or R18 label really protect children from the latest Rihanna spectacle? And could censorship do more harm than good?
My Guardian piece – out today in the paper’s main section – on pop, censorship and why we should be concerned about the age certification pilot for music videos. Contains: FKA twigs, Angel Haze, Nicki Minaj, race politics, raunch, ‘stripper pop’, slut-shaming, queer visibility in film, TV and lit, challenging the swerf lobby [namely, OBJECT]. Special shout-out to Feminists Against Censorship’s Holly Combe for the excellent quote.
Sad to say my sign-off line didn’t make the final edit as it passed through the Guardian’s features desk – despite the commissioning editor telling me it was her favourite part. My ultimate position is this: with 3.5 million UK children living in abject poverty under the Tory gov, austerity is the biggest, most immediate threat to the welfare of our young – not music videos.
The divine CRA doin’ it right. Key point about FKA Twigs. Would also add that the modern pop video often contains many deeply pernicious ideas that have nothing to do with sexuality, and these self-appointed moral guardians aren’t about to go censoring those.
It’s been a heavy week. A few days ago we lost one of our heroes, someone who was better than anyone else at reminding us to hold onto laughter when it gets dark. I’ve heard members of the choir murmur “suicide is selfish” in passing. I imagine we’ll be hearing it a lot more, and that’s a shame. It’s also not true. First it was tutted at LAX by a woman watching TMZ. Anonymous commenters on news sites. Little burps on twitter. A well-meaning friend to me over text. I don’t mean to diminish in any way the serious business of taking one’s life, but what about a dialogue that didn’t rest on the axis of “selfishness?” For many the suicidal state is involuntary. You get there because you feel trapped in a corner. You get there because you can’t see any other way out. Being told it is a selfish thing to do reinforces feelings of helpless- and hopelessness while driving the discussion away from what is most important: helping people who are seriously ill receive treatment. Depression moors you on an island where you can’t feel anything beyond pain, can’t see what lies ahead. It’s not a fog, it’s a white out. It’s a brutal illness. I know from experience.
If white American feminist theory need not deal with the differences between us, and the resulting difference in our oppressions, then how do you deal with the fact that the women who clean your houses and tend your children while you attend conferences on feminist theory are, for the most part, poor women and women of Color?
“Whatever you now find weird, ugly, uncomfortable and nasty about a new medium will surely become its signature. CD distortion, the jitteriness of digital video, the crap sound of 8-bit, all of these will be cherished and emulated as soon as they can be avoided. It’s the sound of failure: so much modern art is the sound of things going out of control, of a medium pushing to its limits and breaking apart. The distorted guitar sound is the sound of something too loud for the medium supposed to carry it. The blues singer with the cracked voice is the sound of an emotional cry too powerful for the throat that releases it. The excitement of grainy film, of bleached-out black and white, is the excitement of witnessing events too momentous for the medium assigned to record them.”—
Brian Eno, A Year With Swollen Appendices (via fleurlungs)
“For Willis, if your revolutionary thinking didn’t accurately reflect reality, it couldn’t change reality. In her version of liberation, sexual revolutionaries aren’t smug, performative hedonists who play out their fantasies in villas on Mustique; they wonder instead how thin the line is between courage and delusion while drinking coffee alone in their apartments or sitting on benches outside the Laundromat. And rock writers don’t turn their prose up to 11 to compete with the bands they’re covering, or get so bound up in the role of gnomic wizard that they can’t just shrug their shoulders and say, as Willis did, well, I was wrong about the Ramones; they admit to communing with what she called “the screaming teenager” inside. To Willis, acknowledging the real meant acknowledging that we are minds connected to bodies, and that what may not seem real at all — the unconscious and the psyche — are very powerful forces. Nearly every piece is a reminder that the culture we live in, even when we don’t profess its prevailing beliefs, has an effect on the psyche; that we internalize expectations even when we think we’re free; that we need to gather in groups to change our minds and the minds of others, because otherwise we stand alone in our pain and confusion, thinking that we’re the problem.”—NYT, on The Essential Ellen Willis (via katherinestasaph)
From the age of seven, I operated a very strict regimen when it came to fandom. The first step was saving any articles about my favourites and storing them in a cardboard flap folder until The Day. Once every couple of months, always on a Sunday, I’d sit down with the inky bounty and prepare to commit everything to my meticulously organised annals: images and articles would be precisely snipped out, glued onto the blank side of a piece of scrap paper, two sheets of which would be placed back to back in a plastic wallet, and entered into the correct lever-arch folder.
I once made the mistake of leaving the auxiliary folder at a friend’s house. We fell out that weekend. She told me she burned it, though even 16 years later, the image of a nine-year-old girl warming her hands and cackling as she stoked a small pyre of the Spice Girls’ quickly ashing faces seems inconceivable. She had rich parents. She was probably allowed to have bonfires whenever she wanted.
The next level couldn’t be contained by lever-arch folders. My parents mounted two large pinboards on my wall so that I could put up pictures without gumming up the paint with Blutack. Unfortunately, my desire to look at 300 photos of Avril Lavigne, tAtU and Alex Parks at all times – from poster-size to barely visible thumbnails – overrode any concern I might have had about being told off for spotting the walls with grease.
Around a year and a half later, it was time for another change. I carefully peeled off the pictures, preserved the Blutack for reuse and put my old self in the recycling bin. I spent an afternoon meticulously redecorating every surface, reinventing from the small pile of NMEs, copies of Vice, FACT and The Fly that I had amassed and some free posters I was given by the local record shop: The Libertines, Kings Of Leon, Razorlight. I redid the coverings on my school folder and textbooks. After several hours, I called my mum in to show off my handiwork. “Great,” she said bluntly. “From lesbians to drug addicts.” The Libertines poster I’d stuck in my window, facing out onto the street, was removed on pain of grounding.
At the end of this month, it’s 10 years since Razorlight released their debut album, Up All Night. I first discovered them back in the pinboard era, when Daniel Radcliffe (pictured with a bowlcut and a broomstick) said he loved them in an NME interview. I think my logic for seeking them out went something like, “if that Harry Potter guy knows who they are, I should too.”
On Wednesday I went to Camden’s Electric Ballroom to see them – or Johnny Borrell and three hired hands – play the album in full. It’s a record I hadn’t listened to in eight or nine years, so I couldn’t remember a lot of the words, but the lyric I was listening out for was conspicuous in its absence. In “Vice”, the third song of the record, Borrell gives out his phone number and sings, “call that number and I’ll call you right back”. I hadn’t forgotten the phone number: “0h-seven-seven six-one-oh one-oh two three-threeeee”. Maybe the sound was muddy or the line was obscured by his new woodsman’s beard, but he seemed to skim over it at the gig.
After a lot of haggling and establishing of terms, I was allowed to get a mobile phone when I was 15. I used some of my hard-earned credit (I worked weekends in a café cleaning toilets and picking baked beans out of the sink) to call the number and leave a no doubt very breathless message asking when Razorlight would play in Cornwall. Then we went on a family holiday, and the phone had to stay at home. It was the first thing I thought of when we got back; I remember taking it out of my little rainbow-striped bag and calling voicemail. There was a message from Borrell, sounding potentially wasted or maybe just sleepy, promising they’d definitely come and that it’d be cool, man. I played it every day until it expired.
I had forgotten this until I read it again today, but back in 2004 Borrell was pictured on the cover of NME with the phone number from “Vice” scribbled across his chest. A colleague of mine interviewed him a couple of weeks ago and brought this up. After initially claiming that he had never called anyone back, he apparently went on to suggest that it was an early example of social media. Stripping away the unimpeachable Borrellness of that statement, there’s something there: it was certainly the first time that there was any sense of immediate gratification to my fandom.
(It’s interesting to listen to Up All Night with that in mind, too – it’s full of mobile phones. Beyond “Vice”, there’s “Leave Me Alone”, where Borrell can’t get any rest for some girl calling him off the hook. On “Golden Touch”, he’s the one desperately leaving “a thousand” unreturned messages for an in-demand scenester. A message on his phone is “blowing [his] mind” on “Get It And Go”, and “In The City paints a scene of boys figuring out the best way to get high while the girls are desperately “trying to get reception” in search of a different kind of instant high. Up All Night could be one of the first records about how we’re always connected, for better or worse, in the 21st century. Whether it was conceived this way or not, the people in these songs are up all night because they never let each other go to bed; a night never has to die when you can continually communicate to plot your next destination and pester someone until they pick up.)
Razorlight did come to Cornwall: they were the not-so-secret guests at the 2004 Surfers Against Sewage ball, an annual charity party on the cliffs in St Agnes. I lied about my age to get in and got to the front of the stage. Borrell held my hand and sang “Don’t Go Back To Dalston” to me, a song I found particularly moving despite knowing nothing about Dalston and thinking “up the junction” was a euphemism for getting pregnant. It was the most romantic moment of my life to date, and I got a bottle of his half-drunk water as a trophy for my shelf of snapped drumsticks, crumpled setlists, dirty towels and other stage junk.
The following year, they supported the Manic Street Preachers on tour. My parents drove my friend Katy and I to Plymouth to see them. After Razorlight were done, we watched two Manics songs, called my parents to say we were bored and happy to go home now, if they were ready. Later that summer, Katy and I saw them at the Boardmasters festival in Newquay. At this point I had a summer-long work placement with the BBC and had secured an interview with Borrell. I turned up and heard he didn’t want to be interviewed by a kid (I remember it as “some fucking kid”, though that may have been an embellishment of memory), and got drummer Andy Burrows instead, who was very nice. I went home and poured Borrell’s bottle of water in the toilet, a ceremonial purging.
Nobody is really commemorating the 10th anniversary of Up All Night, and there’s probably not a great case for it as a classic of the canon. But Wednesday’s gig reminded me of how strong some of those songs are, and how they must have lubricated my listening brain to receive Blondie, Patti Smith (“In The City” is just “Gloria” with different, worse words, the audacity!) and Television with ease when I discovered them later on. Borrell played it pretty straight– not topless, preening or self-aggrandising, a small, pleased smile occasionally peeking through his facial thatch. Without projecting too much, it seems like he’s made peace with himself, even while journalists still do their utmost to prime the best-value mouth in music for pull-quotes.
There is a case to be made for him as one of the last entertaining figures in British indie, even if he was essentially a cleaner Pete Doherty that teenage girls could take home to mammy. That early quote about Dylan, chips and champagne is pretty excellent, though perhaps the attendant outrage (a rock star with an ego?) is one of the reasons that a lot of young British indie bands have become so mealy mouthed and keen to avoid causing offence. But saying that, Razorlight are a band I think of a lot when I’m at work, doing a job that they and the rest of the class of ’03 – ’04 made me want to do. When faced with a slightly daft but essentially harmless band of boys playing derivative songs, my first impulse is to roll my eyes. Then I remember that they’re all someone’s Razorlight, a gateway drug to other things - or even the be-all-and-end-all of their relationship with music - and try and suspend my cynicism.
“It breaks my heart that men are still so quick to reinforce the male dominance of the music industry and lambast any dissenting voice. I have spent almost all of my time in bands unsure of whether this was ‘the place’ for me, and when incidents like this happen all I can think of is how many other young women and girls will be discouraged by what they see. I will not have my own and so so many other women’s experiences invalidated, reduced and washed away by men who are all too comfortable with the kyriarchy. I want every girl reading this to know that you are so much bigger than what you are told to be. Nobody is allowed to make you feel small and nobody is allowed to invalidate you or your experiences.”—Alanna McArdle, Joanna Gruesome
Dear reader, I could really do with a hand. Bad Machinery book 2 needs a little promotional push, and the best way you can help out - at no cost to yourself - is with a review on your local Amazon site, or Goodreads. If you’re reading this, you’ve almost certainly read The Case Of The Good Boy…
“I’m really against that whole ‘radical self-love’ thing. I think that is bullshit—it puts the burden of loving yourself on you, and it distracts from the real problem, which is that the cultures of privilege and oppression that surround every aspect of human life are why you feel bad about yourself. It’s not your fault. It’s everyone else’s responsibility to stop being shitty, and then you’d probably feel fine about yourself.”—Perfect Pussy did this month’s Rookie theme song (a cover of ‘Candy’s Room’!), and I spoke to Meredith Graves about fashion, seamstressing, prom dresses and why self-love is bullshit.
“But Britpop’s imperial period, which began 20 years ago – with the release of Blur’s Parklife on 25 April 1994 – and lasted until the release of Oasis’s Be Here Now in August 1997, saw the quashing of the sense that outsiderdom was the defining feature of what was known as “indie” music.”—- Michael Hann
I feel like I should address an old post that’s sort of blown up in the last week or so. I have no idea how/why. His management politely (and indirectly) asked if I would take it down because he’s getting asked about it in interviews, and I said I’d rather not. While I imagine he’s probably not a terrible person who thinks rape is funny, he said a very dumb thing publicly in an age of cameraphones and Twitter and tumblr, and there’s no getting around the fact that the night in question was fucking horrible. (Also, it won’t go away if I delete it.) However, from all the interviews I’ve read around the new album, it seems as though his remarks were a knee-jerk remark against the kind of gross bros that were populating the front rows at his gig, almost seeing how far he had to go to repel them. I mean, they’d come on the promise of drumstick-induced bumhole splinters. But he has a smart way with words and character construction. He should know that rape jokes aren’t ever funny. So I’m not going to take it down, and he should be called out for it, but to some of his fans/whoever that are semi-freaking out about it: not to defend him, necessarily, but try and look at the bigger picture, maybe. I don’t think that night was wholly representative.
“On the other hand, I sometimes worry that serious music can only be served by serious talk, or worse, that people who like serious music can only have serious reasons for doing so. The truth is that you will probably meet just as many shallow people at a National show as you will at a Miley Cyrus show, the difference being that people at the National show are more likely to think they’re important, while people at a Miley Cyrus show are more likely to think they’re having fun.”—Oh come ON. Ian Cohen put it best: “On behalf of all fans of The National, it’s an honor and privilege to be named Most Valuable Strawman by Music Writer Twitter for 2014.”
Mac's rape joke was clearly a reply to how horrible gg allin would act at gigs, no way would he say that shit seriously, you made wayyy too much of a big deal out of the whole thing
I wrote that piece ages ago and have no idea why it’s being picked up again now. I’m sure the remark was part of some character act, but it still made him the kind of guy who makes jokes about rape. However, I have a lot of time for his music and don’t think that performance is an accurate representation of his character, but an inelegant reaction against the meatheads who were coming to his gigs at the time.
“This website recently decided they wanted me to review some new, up and coming singles … [one of the bands], I can’t even explain how stupid it was. Not only are you not doing anything constructive with the space you’ve been given to advance any sort of positive agenda, but you’re fully embracing your white privilege, like it’s a blanket that’s gonna keep you warm at night, and you’ve made this batshit nuts video – like, really? This is how you wanna represent yourself and your friends? This is what you want to do with the five minutes you have to exist on the world’s radar? You are wasting this. You do nothing. That to me is like a singularly offensive act, to have space and you do nothing with it. That complacency is the reason that I’m never, ever, ever going to shut up.”—meredith graves from perfect pussy in conversation with laura snapes for nme. yes. this: "YOU ARE WASTING THIS / YOU DO NOTHING" … that thought that crosses my head pretty much every day watching indie rock drones waste away these huge fucking opportunities to do or say meaningful things in front of mass audiences. especially with interviews. man, like, why would any person on this planet agree spend so much of their life doing dozens and dozens of interviews with rando publications around a record or a tour or something, and then SAY NOTHING INTERESTING or important. drives me fvcking crazy yall (via lizpelly)
So perfectly states, also, why so many music writers end up hating music writing (or just music in general).